Non Pipi

2008-02-25T03:52:00.000-08:00

It's just Great What God has done to create us.
Simply He made us so wonderful with our limitations.

I was often killed by my curiosity. I keep thinking it would be nice if I have a gift to know what people think or say in their heart. So if I meet someone and I know he / she think bad of me than I could just go away. Or If you walk alone on the street, then you know that someone not far from you have bad intention to either rape you or rob you then you could just run away and be safe. For love life if you have a crush on someone, instead of guessing how he feels about you, If you could read his mind than you know you should go on or go away. In my thought a gift like that is perfect.

But then, I started to think the impact of the gift. Can you imagine when you are walking and you hear hundreds or thousands voices from people’s hearts. OK, lets imagine maybe among the voices are asking for help or planning to rob a bank, or killing someone, or having sex tonight hehehe. But the point is finally I decide it would be very annoying, confusing or even make you desperate because you just don’t know what to do with those voices. Then (you know, I’ll never give up on this) I know that I need a button, so whenever I want I could just turn it off or on. That’s a brilliant idea and I keep desperately wanted God to grant me the gift. It will be very very useful.

One day God taught me about being careful of what you wish for. He let me know how it feels to be gifted of knowing what people think, of course not exactly the same with the description above, but that’s more than enough to make me learn to just trust God in your life.

There is wise word from Dutch, it said, “Sometimes it’s much better if you don’t know about something.”

Finally I fully understand the wise word, God let me know about something that I really curious about. I thought, once I know, then I could find out what to do, how to prevent, or how to fix it The fact was, when I know about it, it hurt me badly. Badly and I was just can’t stop crying and mourning. I was asking why to God. He reminded me the serenity prayer. “God, give me the serenity to accept the things I can’t change, the courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference. Accept this sinful world, as Jesus did, as it is, not like I would have it. Take the hardship as a pathway to peace. Trusting in God, that You will make everything is right If I surrender to Your will.,,,,,”

You know what, actually He created us with limitations, one of the reason is I’m sure to comfort us. Who am I so I could think I could fix something as if I have power to do that. I forgot that my strength which I thought I had can’t make this world, can’t make the sun, can’t create light or dark. Suddenly I just feel silly, I did think that I can control the situation surround me and make it like I want. I thought I can put everything in the right path to get my aim. But I forgot that I JUST NEED TO TRUST GOD, HE WILL MAKE EVERYTHING RIGHT IF I SURRENDER TO HIS WILL. Knowing that He never takes a day off to love me, care me, guide me and bless me in every moment of my life. If He thinks it’s good for me, then He will easily give it to me. But if He thinks it will not good to me then of course He will give me the serenity to accept that. Because I don’t need to know about everything, it will not always bring good to me, even it could make me sad. So, finally I feel grateful, and blessed as I am. I just need to ask and trust God, He will takes care everything for me. Start from now I will learn to stop finding out every time I feel worry about something. I will just pray and let God takes care the business for me. DO YOUR BEST, GOD WILL DO THE REST!

Saturn

2008-02-21T02:43:00.000-08:00

It is difficult to say what is impossible, for the dream of yesterday is the hope of today and reality of tomorrow.- Robert Goddard

2008-01-21T19:54:00.000-08:00

Hanya dekat kasih Mu Bapa
Jiwa ku pun tenang
Engkau menerima ku
Dengan sepenuh nya

Walau dunia melihat rupa
Namun Kau memandang ku
Sampai kedalaman hatiku

Tuhan inilah yang kutahu
Kau mengenal hatiku
Jauh melebihi semua
Yang terdekat sekalipun

Tuhan inilah yang kumau
Kau menjaga hatiku
Supaya kehidupan
Memancar senantiasa

Prayer for Serenity

2008-01-14T20:08:00.000-08:00

God, grant me serenity to accept the things i cannot change, courage to change the things i can, & wisdom to know the difference

Living one day at a time, enjoying a moment at a time

Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace

Taking, as Jesus did, this sinful world as it is, not as i would have it

Trusting that You will make all things right if I surrender to Your will

So that I may be reason ably happy in this life and supremely happy with You forever in the next.

AMEN

2007-11-19T16:36:00.002-08:00

Aku tak mau, sungguh tak mau
Semua ini berlalu
atau menjadi semu

Aku berfikir keras dan berencana

Bagaimana harus menghadapi nya

Kuyakinkan diriku, AKU BISA

Walau ku tahu, dalam hatiku, aku meragukan nya

Aku menghitung, waktu demi waktu
Bilakah rasa itu
Menghampiriku, menghancurkanku

Sesak, gundah, gelisah

Ingin kutanya padanya

Apakah kamu merasakannya

Ataukah kamu mengindahkannya

Aku dilema...

Kucoba tipu diriku, ini hanya angin lalu

Tapi aku tak bisa menipu waktu

Terlebih, ku tak bisa menipu hatiku

Tuhan aku lelah!

Aku tak berdaya

Menghadapi kenyataan
Mungkin tak seperti yang aku inginkan

Menghadapi kemungkinan

Menatap kepergiannya

Karena aku ternyata

Bukan yang benar-benar

Diinginkannya....

Happy to be me....

2007-11-13T23:49:00.000-08:00

Everyday...

More and more I'm grateful for being me...

I'm happy because my parents are healthy

I'm happy because my bro & sis are also healthy

I'm happy because my lovely dog indeed healthy

I'm happy because i am healthy

I'm happy because i have a job

I'm happy because it's near from my house

I'm happy because eventhough my body is not as in shape as barbie, i don't get anorexia

I'm happy because eventhough my face is not as pretty as angelina jolie, i'm still sweet

I'm happy because i have a straight long beautiful black hair (people told me so)

I'm happy because i have a smooth skin

I'm happy because i have time to wash my comb at my last off day

I'm happy because i still can take my mum shopping

I'm happy because i still can accompany my bro to swim

I'm happy because i can talk to my dad

I'm happy because they love me so much

I'm happy for my comfy room

I'm happy for having a house

I'm happy for having a nice and smart boyfriend

I'm happy for my life

Happy to be me

Happy that knowing no matter what, God will always take care of me...

Thank you God, for a beautiful life You gave me

2007-11-13T18:38:00.000-08:00

Ajarkan aku menjadi naif

Senaif dirimu yang masih bisa tertawa

Senaif kebahagiaan kita berdua

karena setiap detik dikala kenyataan

mulai bersinggungan

aku rasakan sakit

yang nyaris tidak tertahankan

Atau ajarkan aku menjadi penipu

apabila ternyata

kau merasakan sakit

dalam tawamu....

Siapa bilang Gue gak bisa Masak

2007-11-06T03:00:00.000-08:00

Sapa bilang gue gak bisa masak?

Coba deh buat Tom Yum Soup ala Yuan:

untuk 4-6 porsi

Satu bungkus tom yom paste (beli di hypermart ada kok)
Air sekitar 600-800ml
Cumi dan udang suka-suka aja banyak nya
Jamur merang (kudu kalo doyan)
Kecap ikan
Daun jeruk 3 lembar
Sereh 1 batang di keprek
Jeruk nipis secukupnya
Cabe rawit merah - suka suka aja berapa banyak

Cara nya:
Air nya direbus dulu sampai mendidih
Terus masukin deh paste nya + daun jeruk + sereh + cabe rawit merah, aduk-aduk terus selama 15 menit biar rata
Terus cemplungin deh cumi, udang, dan jamur merang nya, aduk-aduk lagi selama 5 menit.
Tambahin kecap ikan untuk rasa asin nya, tambahin jeruk nipis untuk asem nya
kalo udah mateng semua, matiin api nya, tutup panci selama 5 menit

Abis itu.. serbuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...
eh eh makan pake udon enak jg loh, beli aja di hypermart, trus rebus udon nya sampe mateng, lalu makan pakai sup tom yum nya... yummmmyyyyy ;)

duh nanti kalo bikin lagi difoto deh biar bisa posting, gudlak

Sepenggal Bait...

2007-10-08T17:14:00.000-07:00

Sosok yang tidak pernah begitu ku kenal
Sosok yang kurasa biasa saja keberadaan nya
Sosok yang sangat kusenang kala dia mendekat

Sosok yang tidak banyak bicara
Sosok yang ternyata sangat kusayangi

Sosok yang kutangisi kepergian nya....

Sosok yang ternyata kurindukan
Sosok yang buatku sangat kehilangan

dan kudoakan kebahagiaan nya

Terima kasih untuk buatku mengerti arti hadirmu
Terima kasih untuk buatku setidaknya sedikit mengenalmu

Memberi kesempatan untuk memberikan kasih ku
Terima kasih sosok yang buatku bahagia bisa tinggal bersamamu

walau hanya sekejap...

Aku menyesal...

Tolong....

Maafkanlah....

Winner VS Loser

2007-10-08T02:52:00.000-07:00

The Winner is always a part of the answer
The loser is always a part of the problem

The winner always has a program
The loser always has an excuse

The winner says, "Let me do it for you"
The loser says, " That's not my job"

The winner sees an answer for every problem
The loser sees a problem in every answer

The winner sees a green near every sand trap
The loser sees 2/3 sand traps near every green

The winner says, "It may be difficult but it's possible"
The looser says, "It may be possible but it's too difficult"

So... which one are you?

Inspiring Journey

2007-10-08T02:29:00.000-07:00

Jadi ceritanya weekend kemarin ikutanlah g jalan2 outbound ke kaki gunung salak tepatnya di desa cidahu. kita rencana nya mau liat air terjun disitu. ok g dengan pede nya dong berfikir, ah g pernah kok tracking waktu acara kampus di carita dan liatair terjun juga, jadi ya g bakalan gampang ngikutin nya. so hari sabtu kemnarin jadi lah kita serombongan JSN(komunitas pecinta alam gitu lah) bersiap2 tracking ke air mancur itu.

mulai lah kita jalan, track awal sibiasa aja, tp lama2 mulai menurun dan berbatu-baru yg bikin ngeri, itu bukan tangga dan agak curam, di sebelah g jurang, dah ngeri aja dengan pikiran2 negatif kalo g bakal kepleset dan jato, kan gak lucu, (bener2 tks to myboyfriend yg maksain g pake sepatu keds) akhirnya track nya lurus, huh lega rasanya, tp ya gak lama itu tracknya mulai menanjak emang si batu2 nya dibikin kayak tangga, tp ya g ngeliat ke atas tuh hati g ciut banget dan g langsung berfikir gila g gak bisa ni,terlalu berat buat g (ternyata latihancross training g yang membanggakankare na g udah mencapai level 6 danbisa gak berenti2 selama 30 menit gakterlalu nolong) tp co g dan teman2 yglain kasih semangat ,"Ayo kamu bisa"ya gitulah kurang lebih, dan emangbener2 encouraging. karena nafas gbener2 abis rasanya sangkin kecapean. untung aja dengkul gpp. kalo gini cerita nya, tracking g waktu itu di carita gak ada apa2nya deh.

kurang lebih setengah jam sampai 40'kali ya jalan, suara air terjun nyakedengeran, waktu pertama kali g liatair terjun nya, buseetttt tahu gak lo, itu ya rasanya penderitaan g tadi waktu menuju kesini terbayar sudah,langsung ya semua capek dan lelah yg g rasain kayak diguyur sama air yang jatuh ke kolam kecil dari ketinggian kurang lebih 10-15m. sangkin banyaknya tuh air jato, g tuh sampe bisa ngerasain semriwing rasa dingin dikulit g, sampe g tahu ni kalo air nya pasti dingin banget. itu ya bener2 pemandanga n yang duh gimana ya menggambarkan nya... menyegarkan jiwa banget deh. akhirnya satu2 mulai nyelupin kaki, pokoknya yg daripertama niat gak mau mandi langsung bergugur an gak tahan dengan kesegaran air nya dan godaan mandi persis di bawah air terjun, brrrrrrdinggiinnnn banggettttt sampe gemeteran..

nah, pas jalan pulang kira2 3/4perjalanan, g sama co g berenti lalu dia nunjuk ke kejauhan sambil bilang "kamu liat gak jalan2 setapakdi ujung sana? itu kamu dah jalan sejauh itu loh, percaya gak" g tuh cuma bisa ngeliatin dia dan gak percaya gila yg awal nya g pikir ini terlalu berat buat g, yg awal nya g pikir g gak bakal bisa ngejalanin nya,ternyata g bisa.... sekarang g ngerti kenapa co g doyan banget outbound travelling, ternyata emang bener yg dia bilang, kamu bisa ambil filosofi dan analogi apapun dalam hidup dari alam. Alam membentuk karakter seseorang.Buat g, itu bener2 pengalaman yang memberikan inspirasi, kalo besok2 sesulit apapun g menghadapi masalah, g akan tetap berjuang dan gak nyerah,karena g tahu g pasti bisa melaluinya. Amiiinn...